Fuck
What to do, what to do

I'm tired
Not tired like I ran a mile, but tired like there's too much shit on my mind
I'm stressed

I wish I could really just get away by myself.
No fighting, no negative confrontations
Just me

Lately the line between right and wrong has been blurred.
What IS right and wrong?
Is it wrong for me to want to leave home so bad?
Or is it right and normal for me to want to go out and spread my wings?
Should I feel bad that I wanna do my thing after being smothered and treated like a kid for 20 years?

Is it wrong that I'm mad that my boyfriend is moving in with a guy friend and another girl?
ANOTHER GIRL
I dont give a shit if shes just a friend, that makes me uncomfortable
I trust you, I just dont trust bitches
& Should I not feel bad that he's moving in with them and not me?
I mean, I know I'm not ready..but you couldn't wait for me?

Ur guy friend is not even a good friend.
I don't like him, I don't like his girlfriend (who will most likely be over a lot) and I don't like that his girlfriend is friends with your ex.

Is that wrong of me?

Am I being selfish?

Then I desperately need to get a new job and start going back to school.
Fuck I haven't even finished paying for last semester yet

I can barely even pay my own bills now

I'm exhausted
For real

I need a break from reality.
I just need something to lift me up a little

Fuck

I really am tired of fighting about irrelevant shit and people..

Parents are always hard to deal with at some point right?
What about dealing with them all the time?!
I mean..wouldn't it be tiring?
Everyday it's something

It's hard watching someone you love live this way.
Watching such a destructive relationship just get more worse is hard.

Just makes me realize how lucky I am to have a mom like I do.

I'm here to support my love in whatever he does though.

If your reading this, babe, you're my everything.
As cliche as this sounds, I'll never leave you.
Forever and ever.

Do u ever see someone your with talking to someone else better looking than you?

It's gay

I know it shouldn't mean anything and probably doesn't...but still..

Something in me just thinks that he's thinking more about her than me.

My head just thinks too much

'maybe hes gonna leave me for her
Maybe I'm not prettier than her
Maybe he really does hate my bun and he's gonna leave me if I keep wearing my hair that way
Maybe he wants me to have more tattoos
Maybe he wishes I played video games
Maybe i should work out, im getting fat'

And than I feel all insecure about everything :(
I wish I wasn't like that
Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm not good enough...not sometimes, I should say I feel like that a lot.
It's always 'if I wasn't this and if I was that then maybe I could keep him forever'

Gahh

Bedtime with an insecure mind

Ttfn

Does it make sense for a couple to get similar tattoos, same phrase, but it represents something completely different to both of them?

'Forever and ever' to me represents my boyfriend and our relationship and only that.

'Forever and ever' to my boyfriend means something else. It's been his phrase before I was even around so for us..I should for me to get it tattooed would be ridiculous because it has nothing to do with me even tho he says it's 'our thing'

The fact that he's still getting it even though I'm not clearly proves that its his.

If I were to get that and people asked about it to me it's about us. Me and Jake whereas to Jake it means something else. Something that doesn't even involve me whatsoever.

That's dumb right

I'd feel like mine clearly is for him but his is clearly for himself.

So I changed my mind.
No tattoos for me.


Ttfn.

Ahhhhhhhhh
Guess who's back?!?!?

So a LOT has happened since I've been on here.
I originally decided to stop blogging on here to start blogging on tumblr, but I found myself more reblogging photos than writing about things.
Soo long story short, I'm coming back to my blogspot.

I've missed writing on here sooo much and a bunch has happened.
In the time I haven't been with you guys I ended a relationship and got into a new one..

The best relationship I've ever and will ever have.
It feels good to know that there's someone there for you when you need them..someone that loves and cares for you.
We talk all day everyday..on the phone, texting, FaceTime, or just hanging out and I don't even mind.
I don't mind that he's the only one I talk to or think about because he's the only one I wanna ever give my attention to.

Anyway...more at a later time

Toodles :)